Don't feel like knowing anything anymore

Sometimes i wonder if we people tend to not know or notice something will it be good for us?
Is that really the best way to avoid hurts and sadness after know it?
It set me thinking.
Am i too observant or asking too much?
I do agree and not deny that i don't wanna you to go to your friend's house just now.
I know i am a poor pretender in front of you, i'm sorry but i just can hide my feelings.
Do you know that it will set me thinking you will be home late, you will rest very late and if you did not have a good rest you will have a bad day the next day.
All these things are in my mind.
I think those who are reading this will say that i think too much.
But all these are the truth.
Maybe i really done wrong thinking too much of this problems thus leading me to show you the face of 'i don't wanna you to go out with your friends.'
Maybe i am asking and wanting to know too much of your plans.
Just now when we were watching movie, you are not concentrating, you kept peeping your phone until i took it away from you. When i return it to you and knowing that there's a miss call from your friend you are like so angry.

I felt sad because you don't understand that i do concern and worry about you while you feel that it is nothing.
You even told me not to stick with you too much and go out with my friends often.
How to go out with friends often when you might wanna to meet me unpredictably.
How to go out with my friends when i know that i can't stay out late.
You wanna freedom with your friends so do i, but can i?
It was really heart breaking when i heard this.
It's not i don't allow you to play soccer with your friends, meet up with your friends.
Today you did meet up with your friends for soccer for half a day.
I'm only asking for the other half of the day to allow us have our private time spent together.
We don't get to meet on weekday, i'm only asking for half a day on weekend, is that too much?
I tried to endure my tears from forming in front of you.
I cried while i was walking home just now as i don't like to let people see me crying.
I really don't like this kind of feeling.